So it looks like a bright beautiful warm day outside but oh no...it is really cold. Well as cold as it gets here in Phoenix.
I woke up this morning in this weird haze and a surprising amount of energy considering the lack of sleep I've been getting. I just felt like I had to do something today. Like I was capable of completing something. I haven't had that kind of determination in a while. Then, my mom wakes up tired and worn out and makes me feel like I'm sick or delusional for feeling that way. Without knowing it she has a way of putting me down. So, I told her that she was being weird and it was annoying. She stood there for a bit, asked what was with my attitude and then went back to bed. I didn't mean to snap at her but I was feeling pretty grand before she mocked me for actually being up early to accomplish something. I just want to have a sense that I did it on my own. I can't say by myself because my fam and friends are in the corner rooting me on. I guess I'm just tired of being dependent on other people. For my food, shelter, fun times and happiness. I really got to pull up my boots and get to it.
Who has the unpause button?
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