Happiness... :]

Today i had a very lazy day. I woke up late but awoke to my nephew slapping my face. He wanted a new bottle. haha. It was cloudy and cold outside. Finally it feels like winter here in AZ. After washing and clothing the little ones, we headed to Olive Garden for some hot soup. Amazing...then home with a movie. Eat Pray Love.

I've been thinking since then that those three words just make sense. They are essential to a happy well balanced life. But first I must EAT up life...PRAY that I will find my way and LOVE myself. I must start to believe in myself again. I used to know that I could do anything and after so much defeat i lost that little spark.

I really miss it...

Now my new goal among others is to find that spark again...the martina-sence. it's out there still...somewhere...i have faith that one day i'll become re-aligned. it's the journey thats the hardest. I must constantly battle this hill that seems to grow higher and more steep each day. Better get my boots on... :>

one other thing from that movie that was awesome was when the little old Italian lady said...

The only thing permanent in life is family.

so true. :]

cloud nine...

so i had the best night in a long time. i loved it. i couldn't really understand how it all happened but it did. i ended up having fancy friday with my buddy will. we ate and ate and celebrated his late bday at the steakhouse at my work. i gave him the grand tour of the resort. it was cute how he was in awe of everything. i took him to my work and he met like everyone i work with. and everyone loved him. we clicked really well. i don't think we stopped talking the whole time. we walked around scottsdale for a while afterwards watching the drunkards. we played giant jenga...pretty random.

tomorrow night is dancing and random adventures. so tired right now so time for sleepies...here are some pics.

Easy peasy...yeah right.

So, its safe to say that my weekend didn't end up as planned but overall it was retarded fun. so many random times and moments. Despite the drama i would say best halloweenie time.

Me and my buddy Kelly decided to stay in town and not go to vegas. there was that pit of my stomach feeling that i had and it was flashing saying NO NO NO. so i listened and here i am still in one piece. Kelly had the same feeling too. We just dressed up as Batman and Robin and ran around old town being a bunch of weirdos. we went bar trick or treating. hilarious times. her buddy was the shake weight guy and his shake weight was manhandled way more than i've ever seen anything manhandled before. funny thing is it was all dudes that were trying it. haha. crazy guys.

sunday night i danced so much. four or five different clubs with the random bunch of kelly's friend. we were a little obnoxious. we were feeding off each other's craziness. good times. we ended the night with a late meal with some norwegian dudes. they were hilarious and laughed at us as we tried to speak norwegian. we corrupted them with curly fries and milkshakes. they kept picking us up also. apparently its how they say hello and goodbye. i just took their word for it and enjoyed being carried. :> they were nice and of all places thier next destination was burque. haha. i recommended a few places and saw them off before they left to the airport.

soooo...here are some pics. and to good times. they make me smile :]