insane in the membrane...

so. i've gotten really bad at actually posting blogs lately. it just seems lately that the days and weeks and months are blurring right by. time when i was younger seemed to be an eternal neverending thing. something that took soooo long. now it seems like i blink and two years have gone by and i'm still standing in the same place. weird how that works huh?

i had a really good random adventure weekend. i worked which was amazing. it was busy and i love it when it is...time flies by...which then leaves room for the fun. saturday night i went to the tavern. i haven't been there in so long...it was fun. sunday we headed to the lake...randomly...it was super hot and amazing...i wish i had my bathing suit though. after we took a long nap and ate a late dinner. i love that warm sunniness thats left on your skin after a long day in the sun. it makes you want to sleep and watch a movie. i love naps. the time at the lake reminded me of all the times that me and dustin used to go to the river and lake...there was a group that was right besides us and i got random flashbacks of those times. of a me so long ago...a happier less broken person.

sometimes i feel like a wounded bird. i want to fly but can't because my wings are broken...

then sometimes i feel like i'm at the top of the world and things can't possibly be better but that feeling scares me...because of last time.

i'm just working like a dog...making that money. staying busy. keeping drama at a distance. enjoying living in the moment. :> hope you're all doing the same.