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so i got humped at work today...yeah...no need to worry we kicked the guy out. it was just so weird. It's monsoon season here and i think that does something to people. rain in PHX!! what! no way! haha...

it's been a pretty good last couple of weeks. i've actually been...happy...is it weird that being happy scares me. my body tenses when i have that feeling of wholeness. i think it's just because the last time i felt that whole and happy my entire world was crushed...

i'm working really hard on distancing myself from people with drama and craziness...funny thing is i find that leaves me practically no one to hang out with. oh well looks like i'll have to make more friends. yay to new buddies.

just recently i started seeing this guy. he's pretty chill. i like that he has a brain. i can actually have a conversation with him. weird. we also listen to the same music but are constantly able to expose the other to new bands all the time. he's a lot different than a lot of guys that i've dated. he's like a fluffy puppy. haha. for now he keeps the sadness away...

well i am off to nap and take a bath. freshen up for the late night. i'm serving at a private party tonight at work. suppose to be Crrrrraaazzzzzyyyyy!!! awesome i love it!


me and my sis arlynda leaving the silversun pickups concert!! it was way hot!!
my nephew Mason can sit now!!!

My niece Daisy loving the monsoon rain!!

me and some girls from work with thier boys. dinner at city hall steakhouse :>

taking it as it comes...

so the last few weeks i've had some interesting times. good times. happy times. i look at my family and their weirdness and i love them more for just being themselves. i've been meeting some new people too. I've gone on a few dates over the past weeks...some better than others. lately it has been strange to find someone that i can talk to. OMG there are people that have brains. it's weird to say something and that person to understand exactly what i mean. it has def been a while. i'm not really in a place to begin anything new and i'm just taking it as it comes...one day at a time. a huge part of me is still hurting. the tears still come everyday.

so on that note...here are some pics of the fam and me and my sister's crazy adventures to afterlife... :>

zombie magic...

so i am super tired...1 ten hour shift down...6 more to go. :( tiring but i love hours. it = more cash money!! gotta love that...

so last night i had a really random dream...i was staring at this sheet of music and i was humming the tune and editing the music. then i picked up a violin and started playing it. it was a really sad and slow tune...
i haven't played the violin in years. i have been wanting to start playing again...maybe it's time.

so this is going to be short and sweet because i have work in a few hours.

happy 4th of july and happy sunday!!

maybe i'll get to see the last airbender. :>